the thing about gratitude

I woke up the other morning feeling 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒.

It’s not easy to be vulnerable, but maybe my story will help someone, so be gentle because this is basically my heart on a platter (lol).

Recently, when I saw my commission check (we get paid a bonus check every 15th of the month), I broke down. A legit ugly cry. I’ve never cried for any check I’ve received in my life. I’ve always been SO grateful but I don’t really cry for my own stuff, it’s weird I know.

But this time, it hit different.

I remember a time when Kyle and I were dating, we couldn’t afford dog food, so we fed our pups leftovers. We lived in a sketchy neighborhood with hoarders right next to us in our townhouse.

I remember the piles of bills that would sit on our second hand dining table, and the months we couldn’t pay rent on time.

I remember feeling physically sick looking at my bank account because I would go into the red 3x a month. And I remember graduating college and looking at the $50,000 in school loans that I had no idea how i’d pay off.

I remember how hard I worked in every business venture. My OG followers remember my cookie business and when I trained CrossFit clients out of my parents garage.

But through every high and low, I always believed God had big things in store. I’ve always dreamed REALLY BIG and knew that no matter what, we’d make it.

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And you know what? God never failed us. He ALWAYS provided. Even in the worst months. somehow, someway. I just learned to keep walking through doors.

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Almost 3 years ago the door to Monat opened. And after MUCH resistance, I walked through. unattached to the outcome, but excited about what could be possible.

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So when I saw my paycheck recently, I played back the tape... I remembered all of the hard things that were never shown on Instagram. And I remembered the person I was when I said “YES" to this business. And I thanked her for her courage.

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Please know this: success is available to YOU.

Even if you feel unqualified, too old, too young, whatever. If you’ll press in and trust the process, and never quit, walk through the doors open to you even when it feels scary as hell, something incredible may just happen. ❤️